Category: Health and Wellness
Hi I am Michelle from Scotland. I have had clynical depression since I was 21 years old and I am now 26. I take Venlafaxine for it. I think it has stopped working. Some times I hate myself for the way I am. I have tried suiside twice but I now know that isn't the answer. I am okay just now. I have found some things to keep me going, a club called clubnet for people with depression they get together and decide what they want to do. Also I have a guide dog and that helps all though my family don't like animals. Michelle
If the drugs have stopped then you should seek medical help and you have mentioned this before, you seem to want us to take notice of your depression
Trust me depression is not fun. What do you do when your parrents deny your feelings and it takes the school psychologist to knock it into theoir brains. I've had clinical depression for a year now but my mother thinks that it is just me. My father, after finding out that I had thoughts of suiside blew up at me and I haven't been to theropy in 4 months because they didn't think I needed to go and because I am at college. Life sucks sometimes.
Thankfully you know that suicide isn't the answer. I sure do hope that something better will come your way.
Your zone friend Raskolnikov
let me rephrase this life really sucks.
yes life does suck, but it's up to you to change it, you have the power and there is help out there, if you look and ask.
Chocolate Girl, one anti-depressant med does not suit all. I've struggled with depression since I was about 21 as well. Effexir may work for some people, but not you. It sure didn't work for me. I'm on Paxil, which works great for me, but I know people whom it does not help in the slightest. Talk to your doctor about maybe switching the meds, and getting into counseling, if you're not already there.
Yeah, life does often suck. I know that drill. But we choose how we handle that. Sometimes that choice is hard, and we have to choose just to keep going. But when we're stronger, then we can make something of this crazy life we've been handed.
I have depression and have attempted suicide many times. one thing that is keeping me going right now is that I am getting a guide dog. my mom had me taken off my meds and that is bad because I now feel horrible but will make it
Now I take Seroqual to keep me calm. I have only been on it for 2 weeks. I still get bed days. And by the way Depression is an illness a mental health problem.
Seraquil is brutal. They put me on that to calm me down (I ad major anger problems), it just made me more irritable then ever and soooo tired. Someone even told me hat ne of the side effects was paranoya skitzophrenia. I on't know f that's actul possile, but I idn't want to risk it. I'm on afexor now, but I'm trying to get off of it. I don't like being dependent on medication more then I really need to be. I quit my sleeping medication a couple months agoe after having nightmares and not being able to sleep. I couldn't stop thinking about things at night nd I'd obsess bout hings. I'm feeling much better now than I felt a year and half ago. I never thought about killing myself, but I did put myself in harm's way. I didn't care about the consequences of my actions until I realized it was hurting other people I cared for, then me. My parents still deny that I have any mental health problems, even though my mother is a paranoid skitzophrenic with bipolar tendancies. She denies that anything is wrong with her herself,so...anyways. I now hings could be really hard, especially when people don't know how bad you feel bout yourself and how much you end pp doubting everyone's love for you. I'm still taking counselling. My parents don't really know that, but then again they don't know almost anything about me. They haven't been in my life for years. I hope things turn out better for you in whatever you do. If you need to change your meds, then do so. Just know that some meds might not do shit, but some do help. It's all about trying them. And remember, your never alone.
Thanks Lost girl, yes I am tired today and a bit depressed and I don't know why. Yes the seroqual does calm me down but only at night. Anyway I finished college today for the christmas holidays for 2 weeks.
Ok ok ok, let me just say, I've been threw there, and done that, I am 15, and i no what it is like, if your thinking about counceling, depending on the kind of person you are, it may or may not help.
I have had depression for a ew years ow, but am taking xoloft for it, and feel uch better than I did a ouple of ears ago about myself.
yeah, I've been dealing with depression sense 2003 and I'm a lot better then I was , but I still have my bad days, I've not been on my meds for like two months, and I'll be getting back on them in a week or so. Yes some meds work for people and some don't. The best thing you can do is try different types until you find the one that works for you. Oh eah counsoling works for some and not for others, it doesn't really work for me, so I don't go through it anymore. Well my base of depression is different from what is was when I first started feeling depressed. I know that depression is something that can never go away, it's always going to be there, but you can find ways to handle it.
I have chronic depression, I've had it since I was 12. I had taken effexor for it, but they took me off it. I attempted suicide a few times. One thing that is helping me now is my boyfriend but other than that, things are still screwed right up. Michelle and others, try to remember that as hard as life may see there's always the little happy moments to live for. I think that and it can help sometimes.
i have depression and ptsd...
Well, I don't have depression, but there was one time I almost self-diagnosed myself. There are depression tests you can take to get an Idea of the symptoms. Just do a google search for "depression screening tests" and you will find websites with those kind of tests. They seem to be accessible with jaws, so there's nothing to lose.
I don't think those are very accurate. Don't they usually say, "print out your results and show them to your doctor?"
Yes, they do say that. The test I took told me the results so I could get an idea of my symptoms. There was one test that sent results by email.
I was typing a quick note and reading a board post.
Well like everyone else, I have good days and bad days. When I'm depressed, I'm depressed.
I've had feelings of suicide, only on bad days. I even had a suicide plan. I'm not as happy as I used to be. I'm also more tired, and to my self. I admit I'm pesimistic also. If I was a qualified doctor, I'd diagnose myself with generalized anxiety and depression. I'd diagnose myself, but I've never been to medical school, lol!
As I've stated on other boards, I've been clinically depressed since the age of 18, though I could have possibly been diagnosed as having it from fourteen onwards. I have taken Zoloft and Prozac, neither of which helped, and I've only found solace in immersing myself in situations completely: college with its academic and social oppurtunities, for instance. The less one is responsible for/feels one must do as routine, the greater chance depression will set in, in my experience anyhow.
I am clinically depressed and have been off my meds for 2 years. When I was 16 I tryed killing myself and was put in an institusion for a month. It did not help and all I did was behave so I could get out. A lot of the time I am lonely, I follow a routine, and stay to my self. If it was not for my job I would probably blow myself away. Also ever since my last relationship broke up, I have immersed myself more in to reading and computers to numb myself from feeling at all.
well, I know how you all feel, but talk your feelings out with someone or think about the good things ahead.
I was wondering, do those with depression cry more often than people who don't have depression? I was wondering because I cry quite often at what some may say the littlest things. The good thing is that I don't cry in pain, but I cry when I'm worried or sad, and that happens somewhat often. It doesn't take a whole lot for me to be sad, so how often do you cry?
Also, I had a bad day today. I got an $80 phone bill because of too many phone calls. I was so mad at myself. I was wondering, When I'm upset about something, If something else goes wrong, even the littlest thing makes it worse. Does that happen to people with depression?
i've been situationally depressed for the last three months, ever since I lost my guide dog Steven to cancer. I had only had him for eight months, and then, the diagnosis came as a complete shock. He's only three, and this shouldn't be happening. Justl ast Friday, I went to the doctor to get help, and she prescribed a medication called Celexa. I really don't think it's working, even though last night was my third night of taking it, because this is the second night I've been awake crying. The doc said a rare side effects is worsening depression. The guilt about what happened, or is happening, with Steven, is ruining my life, it seems. i'm not able to see a psychologist until the twenty-third of this month. Should i wait and see if the medication takes effect, or see the doctor now and get something else?
Yeah depression s horrid to deal with. I myself was diagnosed this past July and meds haven't worked for me so I understand how you feel.
I have been dealing with depression for 22 years, or about that anyway. It has not been an easy road. I am now on Paxil, or however it is spelled, as well as a mood stabilizer, and something for Anxiety attacks. But it took them years to find the right combination of meds for m.e But now I'm doing a lot better. Yes... Life is full of depressing and sad things, but if you can just think of things that either make you happy now, or have in the past, it might put a smile on your fact. I know this might now work for everyone. Everyone has different ways of dealing with things. And I know I still have my bouts of depression, and I have attempted suicide in the past, but I am now doing better with handling my depression.
Take care.
depression is not fun. I have been through it all my life. I have been on Paxil myself, but it did not help me, so I stopped it myself.
What helps me sometimes is I listen to some music and talk to my friends. I am also a college student as well.
I have been on several medications and none of them did not help.
So, I know what you are going through. If you ever need to talk I am here.
--alleigh
I think I've had depression for about 10 years now. I've tried to go to about 3 different counselors and although I felt I could open up to them, nothing ever changed. I can talk about something all day, but that doesn't change it, especially when those things I talk about have happened in the past. I still have a lot of problems with not liking myself at all, and although I've never attempted suicide, I've come really close a few times. Things that help me get through from day to day are my boyfriend, who's been a huge support. He's always been there for me, and I feel like he's the only one who would accept me no matter how many mistakes and horrible things I've done in the past. I don't think I can ever forgive myself, but it feels good to be able to confide in someone who won't ever judge me. I also listen to music a lot, because I try to relate to the things people say in their songs. When I was in 7th grade, I got into rock music, and it helped me believe I wasn't alone. So music is a release for me. I've also recently started playing guitar, and I hope I get good enough at it where I'll be able to start a band and start to express myself and hopefully affect some people in the same way other similar bands have affected me. I also write in my journal and write poetry, even though my sister calls me emo for it. I really don't care. Actually, I used to have a live journal, but me and my sister used to share a computer, and she went looking through the history one day and basically told me I must want to be kidnapped and stalked because I was writing about my life online. I never gave my name or any other compromising information like that, but she threw a shit fit anyways. Needless to say, I took it down, because she said I deserve to be in a mental hospital because I told her I was only trying to help other people feel like they weren't alone. I take everything to heart when people say stuff to me, I think they must be right or something because they wouldn't say it otherwise.
I wanted to try medication, but my mom is really against it. But I know it could help me, since counseling doesn't. Or maybe it would be a combination of both, because I believe in the whole chemical imbalance thing, even though I know a lot of people who don't. Well, that's my story, and I guess what I want to say is that even though I think some people are just destined to have a life from hell, there's always something you can find to live for, even though sometimes that can be really hard to remember.
If you are over eighteen, the decision to take medication to assist you with your depression is yours and yours alone. i've been on selexa for a while now and things are really looking up.
Not when I have no income, it's not my decision. I am starting the process for SSI, but I know that's gonna take a long time, so I can't pay for it. And anyways, I live at home, so it would be hard to hide something like that.
Hi, all. Turtle, it usually is a combination of both medication and counseling that helps most. Meds can help you function on a daily basis, and counseling can help you learn coping skills for when the depression does strike, and also help find the root causes of it. Also, let me dispel a common myth about counseling. It's not just talking about your problems. You're absolutely right, you can talk about something all day and it doesn't change it. Counseling is about taking that talk, learning coping skills, and changing your own behaviors.
Earlier on this thread, Michelle said she was taking Seroquel. I personally agree with BabyGurlJ, it's brutal stuff. I couldn't handle it. It made me a total Zombie. Ugh. Now I'm on Lamictal and Paxil CR both. But Seroquel does help some, and if it helps you Michelle, more power to you.
people can be really horrible about these things because its an illness that u cant see i find helping others makes me feel better about my self but then i forget about me which can make the problem worse.
I've just recently delt with poste pardom depression, and its no fun, I just cry for no reason at all, but fortunately, its not as bad as I thought it would, although I hope it doesn't get worse in the future, as there's a pretty good chance it might. I'm not a big fan of taking medication for depression. although talking to someone I really trust, and who understands me and knows me pretty well does help me a lot.
i, I am a lot bette han I was wih depression. In February his year I got put out of colege because I had a panick attack. Sounds stupid doesn't it.I was the college counseller who did it. But I haven' had a panick attack since. My sychiatrist wants to make changes to my medication also to my Epilepsy medication to. Itake sabril for epilepsy but she said nobody takes that any more.
Yes I have also had problems with depression and suicidal thoughts (which thankfully I never carried out), although I have never been diagnosed for it because me my self I don't trust medications and I have always been afraid to get it looked in to because I have heard a lot of bad things about the medications, and I grew up in a foster home where most of the kids that came in and out were on these medications and I didn't like how it made them act like zombies and they couldn't think straight because they were on so many different medications.
I am now taking St. John's Wart which is a natural remedy for depression, and I have noticed it getting somewhat better, although I still have my days. I tried counseling but it didn't work for me either. When I do get depressed I try to think of my daughter and how I need to be strong for her.
I'm taking sertraline for depression relating to growth hormone deficiency. If you want to know more its an interesting one so go google it.
It basically makes you feel lethargic and lazy and put on excess weight. you end up having aches and pains mine are so bad I'm taking naproxen for it. Anyone get the feeling that of being suffocated by the weight of it all?
I didn't get any sleep last night, it was the first time I've taken sertraline. I'm surprised I'm functional today at all.
Also, does anyone have trouble sleeping generally due to lots of stuff going on in our brain?
I have this constant hubbub of voices, mostly ones I've heard that day rolling around in my head and it drives me crazy because I can't switch off? I'm hoping the sertraline will help with that until I start having growth hormone shots.
Any ideas? Thoughts?
Going berserk here so anything that might be of use is cool.
well, i've also got ptsd, have had it for a few years now. I do have my bad days and believe me it aint no fun. take it from someone that's tried to kill himself at least i don't know how many times. i'm a lot better than I was, for sure.
zack
Hi everyone, I'm jess.
I have just recently found out I have depression. I am not taking anything for it at the moment, but I am going to talk to my counseler about taking meds soon. I have tried to kill myself four times, and it hasn't helped. Recently I have been getting thoughts to cut again, but thats not the way to go
good thing you are talking to your counseler about this jes, and no, killing yourself is deffinetly not the way to go about it. i'm sure that your counseler will do the best thing for getting your treated. just take it easy.
zack
i am a clinical depressive myself also, and would like to point out that for me, no medication given to me this far have helped, and in all honesty, suicide isn't the answer for me, but the only way out of a bad situation, which is a cowardly view point to take, but the only one i can think of that suits my state of mind when depressed.
All i can say to you, chocolate girl, is to try and try to keep on going. I know it's hard some times, if not most of the time, but somewear out there, possibly very close to you, someone loves you and cairs. Thinking this helps me greatly, i hope it does you to.
rob.
hello michelle and anyone else who is interest.
i've applied for memberships in 2 such groups, earth is hell and trembling hearts. if i get aproved, i'll post the link here
i have been taking lexapro for depression since 2002. it reallly has helped me. my kind is the type that runs in families. my dad, brother, and one of my children have it. it's on my husband's side of the family too. i'm a big believer in a better life through chemistry. i have talked to someone and taken the drug as well. they say that the kind i have is a chemical imballance.
reading these notes makes me feel better in that i'm not a lone. it seems there are sure a lot of us out there.
hey guys.
looks like i joined earth is hell as a wrong move, as it seems an inactive group.
as for the trembling hearts one to subscribe send an email to
trembling_hearts-subscribe@yahoogroups.com. it's really helped me so far with all the insparational messages